The Story
A memory behind the music
I'm pretty sure this song was on some big famous commercial. But I found out about them some other way. I don't entirely know how, likely a friend of a friend of Dan's in my early San Francisco days. Back when I was super in love with San Francisco. When i'd bike from Ocean Beach to downtown SF to work Wednesdays from the Google Office overlooking the bay bridge. When I'd bike to Japantown to be a part of community meetings and organizing things like the Soy and Tofu Festival or preparing for Cherry Blossom Festival. The period of my life when I was trying so hard to use those dating apps to find someone. Going on date after date after date hoping something might work out. Or trying to meetup with girls I knew from before that had moved to San Francisco and trying to date them and it never ever working out. But I didn't want to give up. I wanted to keep trying. I wanted to believe that at some point all this effort, all this surrounding myself with people would work out. And then a part of the song would talk about that relationship between a father and a son. Growing up to be a father but being fatherless. Not wanting to be alone even tho there's monsters. Something about that part of the song would really hit me and feel a little tool real after having dealt with my dad. I think somewhere deep in my this song made me confront that I didn't know what I was doing in so many ways and that I didn't really have a father that I could go home to for advice. I just...had to keep trying and guessing. It took about 4 years of trying after finding this song for things to really work out.